Things are HECTIC right now!
Our backyard is completely leveled (intentionally) but just dirt. I have a new employee that I am training at work (the reason for the late post). We have kids parties every damn weekend for the foreseeable future. We have a road trip planned for the end of the month too (that will be another late post).
I did boot camp yesterday, my butt hurts.
I don’t know if its due to the weather being up and down, or me being run down lately, but I’ve definitely lost my mojo with running. I just cant get motivated.
Our new employee baked a huge container of sausage rolls and brought them in. It was one of those situations where I couldn’t refuse without looking either rude, or weird. I might have some lo-cal noodles for lunch to even out the calories. Ugh.
I’m feeling really down about my own motivation levels, and that I keep sabotaging myself. I don’t understand why. I know that junk food doesn’t make me feel good, but I still eat it – and its like I turn off all common sense and just eat. Sometimes I just can’t stop myself. Like I actually can’t. Don’t give me that shit of “make a conscious decision before you get the food” etc. It’s beyond that. I might go through and remove any/all confectionery from my home because I’ll eat it even if I’m not really craving it. I just like the taste, and the ball starts rolling.
I’m super run down, I was sick a couple of weeks ago, and since then I’ve constantly had minor infections, hay fever symptoms, muscle weakness, soreness, and stiffness, fatigue, and just general annoying niggles. My food during the week is super healthy (but over indulgent/too much) I’m getting plenty of greens and veggies, fiber, protein, etc. Maybe it’s simply the eating too much and/or the bad weekend choices that are doing it… eh I dunno.