What change do I make, I just can’t seem to motivate myself?
Where has the spark gone?
I’m still running 1 to 2 times a week ,and doing a HIIT workout but it’s clearly not enough. It’s like my body has just stopped burning calories at the rate it used to.
I’m super busy at work, and when I get home I’m either completely knackered, or outside moving dirt around, so I don’t want to do workouts at home – plus when I try, the freaken dog thinks its play time and jumps all over me. There is no room in my house to workout except for the communal areas that we can’t lock the dog out of. I try to do them outside and have the same issue…
I keep thinking that my eating isn’t that bad, and to be honest, the content could be worse, but my calories are still WAY too high. Most days I’m at 1500 calories which is meant to be just under maintenance level for my BMR – BUT the weekends are killing it. My kid is always asking for food, so on top of dinner, I’m constantly in the kitchen picking at things that I don’t even need or want. I’m terrified of being hungry at the moment, as that seems to just lead to a binge too. I don’t want to go on a fad diet either. I’m thinking of trying to stick to whole foods, and cooking from scratch – but then I would need to spend more time in the kitchen, and I’m already short on time. Uuuuuugh – other than locking myself out of the kitchen what do I do???????? I am a relatively smart, well adjusted individual, who has spent the better part of 2 years studying nutrition, food, gut health etc. Why the fuck is food such a problem for me????????????
On top of that, its only 28 days until Christmas.