It’s My Birthday!

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I was looking for a cover pic and typed “Healthy Birthday” – this came up… it’ll do.ย 

So I’m down 2.7kg (5.94lbs) since the 2nd Jan (14 days) – it feels like forever to be honest.

I was really disappointed with that number until I realised that it has only been 14 days since I startedย  – I have lost about 0.5 – 1cm off my measurements too.

Anywho it’s My birthday ๐Ÿ™‚ I am donating blood in the morning, grabbing a small piece of cake (maybe), and then going for a massage/spa treatment! The husband bought me a new blender too – very exciting! I’m considering getting curry for dinner ๐Ÿ™‚ I don’t want to have an all out binge so I will just reassess how I feel as the day goes on.

My Husband bought me a Magnum Ice cream yesterday, and I couldn’t finish it. It was so sweet – it left an awful taste in my mouth, and it made the back of my throat burn…

I hope everyone is well! I hope you are all on your way to realising your goals – and if not, that’s fine – we’re only 2 weeks in ๐Ÿ™‚ Just. Keep. Going.

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250 ish Calorie – Broccoli Cheese Soup

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FYI, it looks nothing like this photo…

Hey there! Proud to say, I haven’t fallen off the bandwagon yet! I was even good over the weekend!

We were given a giant box of chocolates last week, they are all gone now, and I only had ‘HALF’ of one ๐Ÿ™‚ Also we still have Christmas chocolate that I haven’t touched ๐Ÿ™‚

Still doing the smoothies for breakfast. I upped my calories a bit the last 3 days which I shouldn’t have – it was all whole foods, but its already affected the weight loss, so I’m going to try to drop them back down today.

Ok, so I can’t quite remember how I made this soup but its FREAKEN DELICIOUS!

Broccoli Cheese Soup; – Serves 3

This is all to your taste, so keep tasting as you’re cooking and change it up to suit – just be mindful of the calories you could add.

1 Head of Broccoli (600grams ish) – 200c

1 Onion – 60c

2 Carrots

1 Garlic clove if you like – 10c

2 Cups Skim Milk – unsweetened almond milk will give even less calories – but it will taste different – 182c

1/2 tsp Mustard powder – 10c

1/4 tsp Salt – 0c

2-3 Heaped teaspoons dry vegetable stock + a few cups water – or 3-4 cups liquid stock – 45c

Ground black pepper to your liking

1/4 cup grated parmesan OR a whole bunch nutritional yeast (to your liking) – 100 ish

Cook – Blitz – Bob’s your uncle ๐Ÿ™‚

You could add spinach too – or other leafy greens to bulk it up.

I’m back – and focusing on health this time.

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Green Smoothies all the way!ย 

The picture above is what I was imagining… me being all hipster with my giant glass jar, and my reusable metal straw.

Below is the reality…


Not so pretty, but it tastes great, and is super good for you!

Today’s ingredients;
2 Handfuls baby spinach
1 tsp greens powder (spirulina etc)
1tsp Maca Powder
9 Cherries
1 Overripe banana
200ml plain coconut water
1 handful of ice and at least 250ml water

I use coconut water to add more sweetness as the greens powder is often overpowering – even with a banana in there.

So I’m back I guess. Focusing on my health, and obviously weight loss, BUT watching someone you love pass away really puts things into perspective.

I don’t want to pass before my time. I want to get old enough to ENJOY my retirement.

Health ‘issues’ – nothing serious, just niggles and ailments have crept back since gaining weight – and they were almost completely resolved when I was super fit in 2017.

My waist at full relax is 86cm! – anything above 80cm is AT RISK of heart disease! This is INSANE – What am I doing to myself? I have a kid, I need to be ALIVE.ย  Not just skinnier but HEALTHIER.

Blood clots run in my family too, so I want to eat more foods that promote blood circulation etc. I might do a post on that?

I gave myself a start date of 2nd Jan (yesterday). So naturally, I binged in the weeks leading up to it and put on extra weight. -_-

I’m only 2 days in now, but so far so good.ย  I’m trying to eat more whole foods, and plant based – but dinner will be the issue with meat, as can’t really afford to cook 2 separate meals all the time, so I have to have a modified version of our main meal.

I’m taking weekly body measurements too We’ll see how we go.

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and New Year!

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I am stuck – I need a change – but what?


What change do I make, I just can’t seem to motivate myself?

Where has the spark gone?

I’m still running 1 to 2 times a week ,and doing a HIIT workout but it’s clearly not enough. It’s like my body has just stopped burning calories at the rate it used to.

I’m super busy at work, and when I get home I’m either completely knackered, or outside moving dirt around, so I don’t want to do workouts at home – plus when I try, the freaken dog thinks its play time and jumps all over me. There is no room in my house to workout except for the communal areas that we can’t lock the dog out of. I try to do them outside and have the same issue…

I keep thinking that my eating isn’t that bad, and to be honest, the content could be worse, but my calories are still WAY too high. Most days I’m at 1500 calories which is meant to be just under maintenance level for my BMR – BUT the weekends are killing it. My kid is always asking for food, so on top of dinner, I’m constantly in the kitchen picking at things that I don’t even need or want. I’m terrified of being hungry at the moment, as that seems to just lead to a binge too. I don’t want to go on a fad diet either. I’m thinking of trying to stick to whole foods, and cooking from scratch – but then I would need to spend more time in the kitchen, and I’m already short on time. Uuuuuugh – other than locking myself out of the kitchen what do I do???????? I am a relatively smart, well adjusted individual, who has spent the better part of 2 years studying nutrition, food, gut health etc. Why the fuck is food such a problem for me????????????

On top of that, its only 28 days until Christmas.


Weight loss Journey and Musings

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I’m still here. I’m still on the wagon! – I’m not doing the greatest job of it, but I’m still here.

I haven’t gained – I’m just not losing anything either.

I’m running twice a week and doing at least 1 HIIT workout, but it’s no good if I continue to over eat. Which I’m still doing. I don’t think I’m building enough muscle for me to be losing fat/size while still maintaining weight – I’m just not trying hard enough with my food.

In two weeks I’m meant to be 12kg lighter or something. Clearly I failed that one, but I’m not beating myself up over it. Do I set a new deadline, or just focus on being healthy? Maybe I should just set weekly goals? Ugh I don’t know.

I would like to at least be 79.9kg by the 1st December – That’s 2.1kg in 2 weeks. Not exactly un-achievable, but it is a lofty goal.

I’m meant to be having curry tonight… I’ll skip the rice and go for veggies or cauli-rice again. I’m also going to be shifting wheelbarrows of gravel around, and shoveling more dirt – on top of my HIIT workout today… Oh there will be pain tomorrow!

I would just like to not think about food. I would like to be one of those people who have to be reminded to have a lunch break or something. I constantly think about food. What I have to eat, what I plan to eat, when I plan to eat it, what I actually want to eat, what I shouldn’t eat, how many calories in everything, what will I eat when I get home, what will I eat tomorrow, what will I eat on the weekend? It just doesn’t stop.

So yeah… in summary;

Haven’t lost. (Stillย 82kg)

Aim to lose 2.1kg in 2 weeks.

That is all.



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Yeah I know…ย 

I have been so freaken busy at work that it is causing actual stress and I don’t get time to update. I’ve been looking for jobs elsewhere to be honest – I love my job on the good days, but lately there have been whispers of change and not the change that I am cool with.

I’ve still been running, and I’ve been doing HIIT workouts once a week (better than nothing hey?)

My food choices haven’t been great but I haven’t binged for a while which is nice. It helps that the husband is making better food decisions too.

I bought a cute little written health journal – it was on sale for $3 so I couldn’t really say no. I record my food on My Fitness Pal (My username is CruskitFairy) and my exercise on DailyMile, but it might be nice to sit in bed at night and physically write, or journal my day?

I’m 81.6kg today – there’s my weigh in lol.

Happy Halloween!

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